Thursday, March 30, 2006

diy lighting options


cool article posted here
about making your own lighting systems for around $75 dollars.

wow quote

"I try to believe that God doesn't give you more than one piece of the story at once. You know- the story of your life. Otherwise your heart would crack wider than you could handle. He only cracks it enough so you can still walk, like someone with a cast. But you've got a crack running up your side, big enough for a sapling to grow out of. Only no one sees it. Everybody thinks you're one whole piece, and so they treat you maybe not as gentle as they would if they could see that crack." -Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood


copied this from this blog by way of Jamie's blog YA-Ya

this is an amazing quote to me. I love the fact this is how I feel, I loved this movie by the way too, the scrapbook in it was incredable, and they even showed in the dvd extra's that a couple of the producers mom's friends made the scrapbook and everyone loved it. This is a definate movie to rent to see as a girlfriend-chick movie. Would be fn to show at a scrap retreat : )

digi layout challenge


this was posted at croppers cottage where I have been a member since 2002 and the picture was so cute I had to do the challenge.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

here's a meme copied from Dawn

Are you more...

01) A harsher critic of others or a harsher critic of yourself? of myself Definately
02) One who thinks stealing is the bigger sin or one who thinks lying is the bigger sin? I think lying is by far a bigger sin
03) Fond of crayons for colouring or fond of paint for colouring? I like both, prefer paints
04) Someone who thinks they have all the tools they could need or someone who thinks you barely have the minimum number of tools to get by? my tool shed is always in need of help!?
05) McDonald's or Burger King? McDonald's--it's the fries that win
06) Obsessive compulsive or whatever happens, happens? Obsessive planner
07) One who enjoys the company of small children (playing with blocks) or one who enjoys the company of senior citizens (playing bridge)? Seniors win in my book
08) Someone who will vacuum-seal food before putting it in the freezer or someone who will just put it in the freezer? No need to vacuum ..just put in there--
09) More proud of your belches or more proud of your flatulence? neither make me happy or proud
10) Possessed of a soothing voice or possessed or an order-barking voice? soothing--I hope i don't bark too often LOL

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

a little blessing chick



" I know you are going to want your own little chick so be sure to visit http://www.blessthischick.com/"

I got this from Katie- her little chick is so cute , she got it from Lindsay Teague- who had a cute artsy fartsy fairy

She is so cute, this is a british web site , but the pay pal was about 7.00$ us - and so fast, I paid today and had her by the time I got home today.

Monday, March 27, 2006

more photos

this photo is from my Brother's window to his back yard, they have a cute little moat and filled it up for us, the sun was out and it was a marvalous day- we spent a great day together.

the kids enjoyed playing bolle in the back yard, something we all haven't done in ages- we reminesed, I took my scrapbook ( book of me) and some photos and a family tree I had and we looked at those and remembered stories about times shared and vacations taken. All in all a good time.

These two are dark- but they are from Mr. Gatti's a pizza and fun spot, kind of like a chuckie cheese- but better food and more fun stuff like the bummper cars, the kids had a blast.


more from mr. Gatti's J playing air hockey and Hh playing skee ball. She got tons of tickets and choose a 8 ball fourtune teller for her prize. they enjoyed the evening.

a few photos from our trip

J and Hh at the reststop inside colorado on the way home from Big Spring! Wed- it was a long day and they were doing pretty well here.

We listened to the cronicles on Narnia by C.S. Lewis on the way home. The first 4 books so far of 7 books. They are a dramatization and are very well done. On the way there we listened to Deception Point by Dan Brown the author of the Da Vinchy Code.

When we left Denver on Monday morning, we had snow and traffic, when we got south to C.S. we had snow and traffic and construction. When we got to Pueblo we had snow and wet roads, when we got to Raton, we stopped and had a little bit of sunshine, we watched the weather channel and then we went on.

the worst leg of the trip was though the " saftey corridor" What the hell is that??? I didn't feel safe at all. We went 30 miles per hour for about 100 miles with such poor visiblity we had flashers on and bearly could see the people in front of us.this was what it really was like. though I didn't take a photo of it.

Friday, March 24, 2006

with the heart


It is only with the heart that one can see rightly.
What is essential is invisible to the eye.
Antoine De Saint-Exupery " from the book the Little Prince"

I loved this book, I read it several times, in english and at least once in French while in college.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

home again home again ziggady zig!

We have had a heck of a week- since I last posted, I went to a Scout weekend and cooked for 40 folks, then Left on Monday and went to TX- it was a terrible drive, took 15 hours - through all kinds of horrible weather, from snow and slush to white out blizzard, to rain and sunny weather.

we are home

calling my folks and my bro to tell them I am here.

will post more stuff in the next day or too, thanks friends for keeping tabs on me.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Cain on the move!

Well the LCSW wants j and I to communicate better !! fear drives my desire for him and I react to that fear, he reacts with attitude to my ravings, the only thing that makes any difference to him is the bike-
I agreed not to sell it- but he has not gotten it back yet either. He needs to show me why he wants it and sell me on letting him have it back - that is what his councelor told him.
So I agreed to go to a parenting adolecents class and he to a being a teen class at the same time. We will see how this all plays out.

On another note- I am going to go to see my younger brother in TX - I will take J and Hh with me and try to make a little good before we don't have him in our lives anymore. I would like to put together a little scrap book for him, but I am not sure I will have time before I go. I have a few photos of us growing up and some info on family. I would like to beable to share so stories, I would love it if my older brother could be there too- with his son. then it would be like a family reunion.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Autism in the news about CDC

here is the national web site- interesting things in the news about mecury and vacines.

Katie has a great web blog and site too at this link

When you have a child with autism you always are worried and looking for all the knowledge you can get.

Monday, March 13, 2006

Raising Cain- it is what it is

here is a link to the book on Amazon

J is up to some old tricks but now worse? than ever if that is possible. he has been getting lots of bike time and I am trying to learn to trust him, though I don't he isn't hanging with good guys and I don't know what to do to keep him safe.. and emotionally to help him.

Well friday we come across a beer bottle- stashed in the bathroom at my house, and the kind J-ex drinks ( J- says he did take it from dad's house later) - What is a mom to do?? well this is not a first offence and so the bike is outta here- I tell him saturday am that I am taking the bike to pawn and will put the money back in his bank account. Oh he has a fit, that is the only thing he " owns" he says to me, you can't take it I say I can, and I will, he phones a friend, and then packs his pack and leaves out the back door- shouting " I hate this effen house and I don't want to live in your effen house." ( he has called his dad to tell him too!) I tell them both that you know when you get a DUI they impound your car! it is Illegal for him to drink at 14!
I am then told how unreasonalble I am, I know in my heart this is not the first or last time this will occur.

The book above has shed a bit of light on the Drinking behaviors as a masculine activity - that allows for emotions to be excused with the "well I was drunk excuse"- though it has some scary statistics on the mind numbing behaviors and let down of bariors that prevent clear thought.

I am taking him back for a session today with a LCSW we have seen for about a year now off and on, it is tough, just when I think we are at a good point he goes right back to bad untrustworthy behavior, it makes me want to scream and shout. I don't understand the cry for what? Attention He's got it. ! control, boundries? I am struggling, to let go but I don't want him to mess up his life and pay for it at such an early age.

This is definatly been a tough go for me and J.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

my pirate name and discription



My pirate name is:


Captain Mary Rackham



Even though there's no legal rank on a pirate ship, everyone recognizes you're the one in charge. You have the good fortune of having a good name, since Rackham (pronounced RACKem, not rack-ham) is one of the coolest sounding surnames for a pirate. Arr!

Get your own pirate name from fidius.org.

word cloud


go to snapshirts

to generate your own word cloud, it is kind of cool to see what topics I really blog about.

Friday, March 10, 2006

how to take better protraits

Link to LIfehacker and further links in article ....

talks about using camera settings and forcing flas for lights in the eyes of those in the head shots.

You're Blessed


You're Blessed when you care.
At the moment of being " care-full", you find yourselves cared for.
You're Blessed when you get your inside world- your mind and heart- put right.
Then you can see God in the outside world.
Mattew 5:5-6 msg

Thursday, March 09, 2006

things to do with leftovers scrap stuff??


cool link to HPDA- doityourself planner
this is a photo set on flicker

or this link at lifehacker too

just think of the possiblities to make this with Scrapping left overs- hmmn??

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

side veiw in the street-

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Here it is - Dig those racing stripes

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new ownership

97 'Tang - black with blue stripes- v8- gt 4lt engine- all the specs- pictures to follow later of the Man and the car- suffice it to say he is grining from ear to ear, and of course agreeed that the next car would be mine- yeah someday I can drive a cool queue_t mobile.